10 Months Old

Today Jacob turned 10 months old. That is so mind boggling. Not only does that mean that in two short months he will be a year old but it means I have kept him alive for a whole year. He is the sunshine of my life and the thought of him getting just a bit older, learning to walk and talk breaks my heart. Where is my little newborn that couldn't do anything for himself? Now Jake can hold his own bottle and cup, feed himself and crawls everywhere. It is the first steps into the "Mom I don't need you for this anymore, I got it" attitude and I just DON'T like it. I want him to be 110% dependent on me again. I know that won't happen and I know that he is still VERY dependent on me but it is so hard to watch him grow so fast. I mean this time last year I was still throwing up with morning sickness and I was 7 months along. I was getting ready for my first little baby shower with all my girlfriends and I was just trying to get through my days. I had a great support helping me and I tried to get out as much as I could but at this point it was still hard. I was getting ready to move to a bigger apartment and I knew I had 2 more months before Jake would arrive.

That seems so long ago. We have come so far in a year and it's hard to imagine that this is how it will be forever. Before I didn't measure things in months, I barely could measure the hours. Now I've been measuring things in months for 20 months now roughly. Since the day my test was positive in August 2009 just two months after Greg and I's wedding. Everything is months, not days or minutes. How old is Jake? When will he turn 1? When is he supposed to do this or that? It is all measured in months. He is getting so close to standing alone. THAT scares me. He can say "mom", "tickle" and "cup". I swore he said, "It's cold" the other day but I could have been hearing things. He has become such a little person. I see so much of myself in him every day. I see even more of Greg in him. It is so special to watch facial expressions and temper tantrums and know exactly where he gets them from. He is definitely a "drama king." NO IDEA WHERE HE GETS THAT FROM!! :-)

Today was a snow day AGAIN. I am getting so tired of being trapped in doors. It should warm up tomorrow and I have 101 things to do OUTside the house. It will be nice to spend the day away. We really didn't do much today. Jake and I have both had colds that last week or so. I did manage to capture a picture of Jake looking out our french doors at the snow, almost to say "hey mom, lets go play" but it was too cold. I am hoping to get back in to a routine soon because this snow just stinks. All is well otherwise and I will continue to pout that Jake is growing just too fast. I hope everyone stays warm and safe.

I will leave you with this...

Snow

For those of you who live or have lived in Texas know that snow happens once a year if that. Last year it snowed several days in a row and we had a white Christmas. Well this year's "snow" started off as awful sleet and ice Tuesday. It did not get above 20 degrees at all this week so the ice has stayed. Then last night it snowed, like 6 inches. So now on top of ice we have 6 inches of snow. It is supposed to get "warm" until tomorrow which its expected to get 30 I think. Then it is supposed to snow next week too. I have cabin fever and I know everyone else does. They have closed school all week as well as many community offices and other places or work. Greg has gone in every day this week and was actual in a car accident yesterday in his company van. It wasn't his fault but it was still pretty scary. He is okay and back to work today. He is such a trooper. So I will leave you with pictures I took. I intend to take Jake out in it some time today just not sure when.