Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Work Work Where are you?

Man so this whole not having a job thing is really starting to get to me. I had to go have my nails soaked off because we can't afford them. How bad is that? I am also using the last bit of my collage savings from my grandma to pay rent this month. Not good at all. I have sent out probably 500+ resumes over the last 2 months but I have not had any calls. THIS IS RIDICULOUS!! Obama needs to step up his game and try to get the economy up and going again. Not to mention prices are rising again. Woopi! I am so tired of sitting around my house being a house wife. That is not why I am here. I need a challenge, I need excitement, I need a job!! Figuring out when the cats are going to eat next is not my idea of a challenge and doing laundry is not my idea of excitement. So that is my rant for the day. On the plus side, Greg and I made a pretty penny watching Lacie and Drew all weekend but it did teach us we aren't ready for kids, not for awhile!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Parenting 101

So today has been one interesting day. We are babysitting some awesome kiddos today! They were in our wedding and we are really close to them! Anyway it has been a lesson for Greg and I. I was their nanny last summer so I was with them pretty much everyday. I know how to deal with their brotherly sisterly "love" and know the ways to keep it under control. Greg on the other hand has not dealt with many children and is still having issues with putting their needs first. Its tough because we know we aren't ready for kids. We are too selfish and we know it. But some events came up that made it hard for their mom to get here so we are now keeping them a little longer than expected. We took them to dinner and now they are watching Alvin and the Chipmunks, laying on a blow up mattress in our living room.

Kids are funny! This weekend I have somehow convinced Greg that we only want one child thanks to Lacie and Drew and their constant fighting. I have always wanted one but he wanted two. After today he has no complaints about only having one. I have to agree with him! But it has been interesting. Hopefully their mom will be here tonight! If not they will get waffles in the morning and they will see her then. Its funny how I am taking things from other parents on how I will be a mom! I can't wait to be a mom. It will be the most difficult thing I have ever done but that is what it is all about I guess!! Anyway Greg and I will continue to learn and one day in the future, not to near but future, we will become parents and it will be the best thing in the world! I can't wait!!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Where's my Epiphany???

I am married. I am married. Which means there are many jobs that come with it. I have to make sure that my husband knows how much money we have. I need to know what our weekend schedules are. I have to make sure the bills are paid and we budget enough. I need to make sure he knows where he is going. I need to motivate him everyday to get up and go to work. I love him unconditionally no matter what stupid thing he may do. I am always there to pick up the pieces. And the most important, I have to be nice to his mother whether I like her or not.

I have only been married for a few short weeks and I have many wifely things I have had to deal with. It's interesting to me how much has changed since our wedding. Before Greg had to take care of himself. I couldn't call the hospital for him and get payment options set up. He would call the doctor for himself and make the appointments on his own. But yesterday I called the hospital to set up payment plans for Greg's visit. The woman asked if I was his wife and I said yes ma'am. She allowed me to set it up without him at all. It was crazy.

So things have changed but I still don't feel married. At least until the mail came today. I received my new Social Security Card. It said, "Meghan Catherine Wheeler." Wow, I really am Mrs. Wheeler now. I love it, I really do but there was no big epiphany. Nothing feels different. Maybe it was because we have lived together for so long. Maybe theoretically we have been married for quite sometime now. Who knows why? But I do know even though I don't feel different, I have taken on more responsibility. I can do things that I was unable to do before which could be good or bad.

I only wish that I could have that one moment where I am jolted back into reality and realize I am married to the greatest person in the world. Maybe it isn't a feeling, or an emotion. Its a state of mind. I don't know. I do know that I couldn't be happier, epiphany or not.